Hello 2010, Goodbye 2009!

Hello 2010,

guess where am I right now?

I'm at home, watching Resident Evil, facebook-ing,

while cracking my head trying to express my feelings through here.

I'm thankful for still being here, breathing.

thank You!

I have no expectations this year.

its new year but i guess 2009 still hunts me.

i feel,

empty.

R.I.P The Rev

James Owen Sullivan or better known as The Rev has left us on 28th December, 2009. He was the drummer and back-up vocalist for my favorite band Avenged Sevenfold. I'm seriously devastated right now. I can't help to cry while listening to their songs especially "Critical Acclaim". ARGHHH!!!!!!!!!!!!! I was singing to that song this evening. WTF?! I can't believe that he is gone. The Rev has this unique voice whenever he sang as back-up for M. Shadows. i'm lost in words. i'm so sad right now. can't believe that he is gone. i didn't have the chance to see him perform live.

dear jimmy, rest in peace.

thanks for making great music.

i miss you already!

rindu!

boleh tak, i miss garfield okay. i think i hugged him about 20 minutes or so. nak lepas rindu! rindu garfield!

kakak loves you, garfield. even though i always bully you, i love you fatty! walaupun kadang-kadang rasa jeles dengan garfield sebab mum and dad gives you more attention , instead of me. but garfield, if only u knew, how much i love you. when im upset, or when im crying, u're always there, laga-laga kepala, kisses my cheeks and at times you even place your paws on my face as though you wanted to wipe off my tears. it was like you know that im sad. bukan kakak saja *pap* *pap* on your butt, its just that kakak geram jer tengok badan garfield macam tu. comel sangat! garfield, garfield tak pernah kecewa kan kakak bila kakak ajak amek gambar. how am i going to live without you? ish sorry kakak nangis masa type ni. kakak sedih kalau garfield tak ada. now you're sitting right next to me waiting for me to feed you, your favourite treat. i know. i love you sayang!

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i've always been true,

i've waited so long just to come hold you
i'm making it through,

it's been far too long, we've proven our
love over time’s so true, in all that we do
the stars in the night, they lend me their light
To bring me closer to you

Happy birthday Cali

Cali, happy birthday!!! :D

i won't see you tonight part II

cry alone. i've gone away.

no more nights, no more pain.

i've gone alone, took all my strength,

i've made the change.

i won't see you tonight.

sorrow, sank deep inside my blood.

its building up inside of me

a place so dark so cold, i had to set me free.

don't mourn for me.

so far away, im gone.

please don't follow me tonight,

and while im gone,

everything will be alright.

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di mana aku nak mengadu nasib aku?

ish!

orang lain pun ada banyak masalah,

tak kan aku nak tambah masalah aku kat diorang.

gila!

nyesal. menyesal bagi tahu.

bodoh!

lain kali tak perlu bagitahu apa-apa.

kan dah pandai pura-pura gembira

:D

nak nangis pun tak boleh,

nangis sekarang! sekarang! sekarang!

cuba esok jer lah.

sedihnya!

siapa nak back up aku?

kau boleh la, ada back up.

aku ada?

tak ada kan.

kat mana nak order 'tempat mengadu' large satu?

atau

orang ke yang boleh back up aku,

boleh?

aku sumpah, aku tak nak bagitau apa-apa dah lepas ni.

menyusahkan, kan?

aku sendiri yang cari masalah.

bodoh!

ish!

biar lah aku dengan diri aku lepas ni.

kalau tak kesah,

tak perlu lah nak ambik tahu pasal aku.

okay?

Happy birthday teejah!!!!!

dear kate,

happy birthday!!

Love you!!!!

aku malu

Aku malu,

Kau tak kan paham kenapa,

Aku malu,

Kau boleh cakap senang sebab kau tak tahu kenapa,

Aku malu,

Kau tak akan tahu kenapa,

Aku malu,

Kau tak dapat rasa apa yang aku rasa sebab tu,

Aku malu,

Perkara yang berlaku, sebelum dan sekarang buat,

Aku malu,

Susah nak bagitahu macam mana,

Aku malu,

Nak bagi kau paham kenapa,

Aku malu,

Pun susah, sebab tu,

Aku malu,

Tolong lah paham!

Aku ni pemalu.

pergi

mahu pergi jauh

dan

tak kembali!

hari ni sekali lagi, aku rasa shitty gila.

kenapa Tuhan tak ragut jer nyawa aku?

kan senang?

tak perlu nak menyusahkan orang lain.

benci nya keadaan ni.

aku mahu pergi jauh!

dan

tidak mahu kembali!

jangan terkejut,

kalau aku tiba-tiba 'M.I.A' satu hari nanti.

bila?

kita nanti kan lah.

memang aku keras kepala.

kalau aku nak,

aku angkat kaki jer, terus pergi.

jangan lah masa tu cuba nak cari.

memang aku tak kan layan.

sorry!

tu jer aku boleh cakap.

truth

the truth is out there.

*hehhe*

nak tergelak, sebab semua rahsia dah dibongkarkan.

aku tahu!

siapa kamu!

pergi mati cepat!

Bilik Ahmad Berdaki

I went to KLPac with Charlie & Mamet for 'Bilik Ahmad Berdaki' play. it was good. very sensual. *LOL* told mamet, the play makes me horny. *ahhahah* I had a good time! food doesn't suck that bad anymore! anyway (charlie is not going to like this) *ehhehe* cannot lupa that person who said "good night" :)

P/s: on my way back, i found my song. its by Splender (not spender) - i think god can explain.

There's a lot of things I understand,
and there's a lot of things,
That I don't want to know.

But you're the only face,
I recognize, It's so damn sweet of you,
to look me in the eyes.

It's all right, I'm O.K.,
I think God can explain,
I believe I’m the same,
I get carried away
It's alright, I'm O.K.,
I think God can explain
I'm relieved, I'm relaxed,
I'll get over it yet.

The scent of vaseline,
in the summertime,
the feel of an ice cube,
melting over time,
Well the world seems bigger than both of us,
yet it seems so small,
when I begin to cry.

It's all right, I'm O.K.,
I think God can explain,
I believe I’m the same,
I get carried away
It's alright, I'm O.K.,
I think God can explain
I'm relieved, I'm relaxed,
I'll get over it yet,

It's all right, I'm O.K.,
I think God can explain,
I believe I’m the same,
I get carried away
It's alright, I'm O.K.,
I think God can explain
I'm relieved, I'm relaxed,
I'll get off of your back,

I think God can explain.
I think God can explain.
I think God can explain.

Touch 'n Go

okay seriously, i didn't know the card 'touch 'n go can pay for food as well. i only thought for toll and parking. hebat hebat! banyak pulak tu, so kalau tak ada duit, guna touch and go sudah. *LMAO!*

hi!

hi!

its me again.

another entry.

by,

yours truly.

tolong bawa aku pergi jauh dari sini!

its going to be another long night.

BENCI!

wow

wow!

i manage to update 6 entries in one day.

funny!

normally, only once a month.

taniah!

no idea

met kate just now, had sushi. *ehehe* sushi king blacked out. funny! but we stayed on while other customers decided to ditch sushi king. i couldn't really eat, lost my appetite. every time i try to swallow something, its like swallowing death. sangat tertekan. memang tak lalu, rasa bila telan something tu susah sangat! but i was quite happy to get my toffee nut frappucino, my favourite drink only available during this time of the year. Argh! anyway perasaan ini sangat shitty. i hate this feeling. why should i even bother about this stupid feeling? i want to go somewhere. i should get out of the house. but where to? shht! i can't even shed a tear. stupid me. i think i need to cry now. make me cry!

trouble sleeping

i tried to get some sleep around 7 something this morning. it was terrible. every time i tried to shut my eyes, his images pops up. i twist and turn, on the tv. still nothing happen. tried to think of happy thoughts. *kapeesh* nothing. still can't sleep. then i remembered dr.subra told us in the class, to have a good sleep is to chant mantra, so what i did was, i started to chant my own way of mantra, which is surah-surah from the Quran. i felt at peace and i didn't even realize that i'd fallen asleep.

grrr!

its the most longest and horrible night ever. i can't sleep. i can't even shut my eyes. though i'd deleted most of him, but the memories of him kept running through my mind. its only 3 years of memories, come on. not even 10. i'll survive this. "he is nothing to you. you dumped him, remember?" keep telling myself this. but still i can't sleep! shht! i think i need like sleeping pills or something, so that i can sleep peacefully. please please please! or better yet, do something to keep my mind occupied. thats right. okay im going to play games on facebook now! toodles!

Glad

im glad its over. i feel so relief. don't worry.

im okay.

thanks for your concern.

it has been a roller coaster ride. im glad its over.

the funny thing is, im not sad at all. im happy!

will i shed my tears again?

burn MF burn!

you're in my burn book! don't worry : )

aku benci opportunist!

pergi mampos.

sekian terima kasih.

Aussie education fair - Accomplished.

On saturday, Kate and I went to KL Convention center to check out the Australian Education fair. It was fun, got to talk to a few of people regarding my plans to do masters. don't want to get all excited about it. takot sat lagi tak jadi. tu pun mak & ayah still nak consider UK or Aussie. so we will see. my weekend was quite fun, saturday night, went to mat's house for BBQ (mat's sister's convo + post raya + abg's birthday surprise) and the next day went to delicious, bangsar for lunch with kate, mum and her friends. the food was delish, as always! I like! Had the strawberry and meringue, its damn nice! after walking around for a bit, asked mum to buy me something, send kate home, and went back home. dooze off in mum's room. and now i can't sleep! aargh! thank God class is at 12pm today. I think I should try and get some shut eye. Toodles!

despise

seriously. im no body to you. why should i even bother to be around you. im not part of your world, and never have been. you don't even care if im not there. i'd said this before, remember when you didn't invite me, i was devastated. but i change my mind. seriously. no need to invite me anymore. its not healthy for me to be around in your world. i don't even belong there. im just someone you know. i am nothing to you. im like a piece of rock, sitting there, quietly, staring at everyone around me, trying to find a way to voice out against those noises. the only sound that came out of me, is when provoked. you're there, not knowing anything about me. i hate you for that. i should have avoid this years ago, but im trying my best to slip away slowly, no one will ever notice that im gone. i promise you that. you and your world and its time for me to live in mine.

:(

happy!

OMG!

I'm officially an aunt.

I'm so happy!

Alhamdulillah.

Congrats abang & fatin!

hujan

damn it. dah la tengah sedih-sedih, hujan lebat pulak! tak perlu la nak tambah kesedihan kan

:(

anyway, before i forget,

mum,

happy birthday!

jangan cepat melatah, bukan besar kepala, tapi nak pancing reaksi.

in my shoes, just to see
what it's like, to be me
i'll be you, let's trade shoes
just to see what it'd be like to
feel your pain, you feel mine
go inside each other's minds
just to see what we find
looking shit through each other's eyes

I just hide behind the tears of a clown.

aku patutnya bergembira. tapi aku rasa sebaliknya. what ever i do, i can never be good enough for myself. bodoh! tak perlu la aku nak nangis sekarang. buang masa naimah! takde orang kesah! Kelakar bila orang cepat melatah, dan secara tidak sengaja jawapan jujur diterima. Funny. (melatah di sini, bukan dicucuk atau dikejutkan) ahh. dengan reaksi tu, aku dah dapat tau aku ni memang tak cukup bagus untuk apa-apa. i can never be good enough. im a big disappointment to myself, my family and my friends. kadang-kadang aku tanya pada Tuhan kenapa aku jadi begini. aku tak tuduh sesiapa, sebab aku tau, semua benda yang jadi pada diri aku ni, semua dah tertulis and i know things happen for a reason. tapi kenapa aku rasa sangat shitty. i need someone to pull me out from this freaking shit! semua orang selalu pandang rendah kat aku, sebab tu susah untuk aku cakap "i believe in myself" memang susah. dari dulu, sampai sekarang. trust me, aku pun tak tau macam mana aku boleh sampai kat mana aku sekarang. kalau orang tak jujur percaya pada aku, macam mana la aku nak percaya diri sendiri. argh! malasnya nak layan perasaan ni. happiness please come back!!!! i should be happy, i don't want to cry anymore.

before i was sad and depressed, pouty always. there was a smile on my face, even though it might be fake. could've ended my life but i stayed strong, and prayed for a better day. i just wish joy and happiness would never stray, so that sorrow would go away.

byebye sorrowness, hello happiness!

shocked

the house alarm triggered just now.

terkejut sebentar.

dalam diam, ikot ayah turun.

ayah pegang kayu golf, aku pegang parang buatan sarawak.

rasa macam ...

nak perang

kelakar pun ada

damn it

tak ada apa-apa.

haziq go die

I HATE HAZIQ!


tolong jangan tanya kenapa? sakit hati sangat!

family gath

Kak la & family, abg remy & family, abang, fatin and maktok was here yesterday. ada makan-makan sikit. jumpa keita, cute sangat "minum, minum, minum". *ehhehe*

Congrats Epah & Sham!

Nikah 26092009

At about 3.05 pm on 26.09.2009, Alifah, or better known as Epah, was offcially married to Shamhan. She is the first ‘AKU’ to get married. I’m so happy for her. Congrats to both of you. We had fun in Kuching. It was fun traveling with my friends. We stayed at Tune Hotel. Not bad for a 4 days and 3 nights. Only cost me and anem, RM250. We also rented a car, easier for us to move around. We helped Epah with the wedding and had the opportunity to pusing-pusing in Kuching. It was fun except the part where I had to naik the penambang. It was the worst 30 seconds and 1 minute of my life. I felt like vomiting. Anyway, I survived as I’m still here today and updating this blog. Thank God for that. There will be another reception for Sham’s side this Sunday at Dewan Perdana Felda. I can’t wait, if I can still remember, Epah said there will be tapai for dessert. *yummy! LOL* So, one down, 3 more to go. I wonder who is next in line. Anyway, CONGRATS AGAIN EPAH & SHAM. Semoga berbahagia selamanya! Love Love!

"Disatukan jiwa, bersama merasa"

Jaja & Dalila

Happy 23rd Birthday to Aizah & Dalila!

Love you darlings!

:)

beyonce - here we come!

told you, she wants to tag along. well she bought the tickets :)

thanks mum!!!

:)

happy!

beyonce coming to town

Im going to ask mum to buy me tickets for beyonce's concert!! i'm not surprised if she wants to tag along :)

raya

I went back to Batu Gajah with my parents this year. We stayed at Casurina, Ipoh. *thehehe* sangat meriah la kan duduk kat hotel. Apa raaa! well most of the time, we were at Abah's place. Pagi-pagi lagi budak-budak dah datang beraya. Trend sekarang ni mana ada dah datang makan kuih raya, mintak duit raya, pastu terus lari. gila! Anyway, I'm back in KL. tak sempat nak beraya at Kate's house in Perak also. I was a bit upset with my uncle and aunty. They came down to KL, and they forgot about me. Kak su got duit raya, and nothing for me. *ahhahaha* whatever. anyway, just wanna share with you, i got rm1 duit raya. *heheheh* first time ever! economy crisis i think. anyway, better than nothing. atleast i can buy some sweets or chewing gum :) positive thinking yawl. this is will be my last chance to get duit raya, next year mana boleh dapat dah. *LOL* yay!!!!! I can't wait to go to Sarawak! yahoo!!! lagi berapa hari jer Epah will be wed. that reminds me, i need to charge my bloody battery yang dah kong tu and pack my bags. Toodles!

misc

I was hanging out at my brother's place after the potluck. it was quite late. i received a message from my mum;

Mummy : "Cinderelli, you have passed your midnight,
love, your fairy mother"

wth?

i had a good laugh and went home.

raya is here again

SELAMAT HARI RAYA! In my most noble honor please forgive anything in the past. May Allah bless all of you :)

20092009

not bad

yahoo!!! tahun ni, 2 hari jer kena ganti puasa :) tu pun sebab beri-beri. kalau tak mesti puasa penuh. *LOL* okay lor, i want to sleep! not enough sleep! Later~

disturbing

just can't help thinking about what she did.
she.
i can't believe it.
she, her own friend.
im sad.
honestly.
satu hari aku memikirkan benda ni.
aku kesian kat kawan dia, kawan aku jugak.
tah la.
susah kalau orang pandai manipulate kepala orang lain.
kawan, bersabarlah.
kau tak kan tahu disebalik cerita ini.
aku minta maaf.
kita sama di dalam hal ini,
kita sebenarnya tak sangka dan tak tahu kenapa dia jadi sebegitu.

she.

is not the same person, i used to know

:(

buntat

yes. exactly. makan makan makan. buntat = happy! suka main bunga api, tapi kalau mercun, mula terkejut sampai nak terkeluar jantung. semua berjalan dengan lancar tadi, alhamdulillah. Thanks for those who came and brought food and drinks :) ilapchu! I should be sleeping, gotta wake up early, nak pi rumah maktok. Toodles~

p/s : "its funny how it takes a few years to know the real somebody. all this while, i thought that person was different but i guess i was wrong. that person proved me wrong"

- kita tak boleh percaya awak dah. tak sangka awak boleh buat macam tu dekat kawan awak sendiri (bukan kita, tapi orang lain). kalau awak boleh buat macam tu kat kawan awak sendiri, mesti kat kita pun awak boleh buat. kita terkejut! seryes. eh jap! awak dah buat macam tu kat kita. *hihihi* kita lupa la, wak. kita okay jer. tak kesah pun. tapi kita kesian kat kawan awak tu. kita takpe lah, dah memang orang pandang pun jahat jer, tapi awak? imej awak kan budak baik, tak sama macam kita, lain. eeee tak sangka lah awak macam tu, awak macam pakai topeng baik. plastik sangat. kita seryes ingat awak lain, tapi sedih lah, awak sama jer. awak sama jer. awak sama jer. - aju

sweet tooth

Aha! I finally did it. I made my first ice cream cake today. It is yummy even though itmelted abit :) *yummy!* It is now in the freezer, can't wait until tomorrow and I also bought a ready made butterscotch syrup to go with the ice cream cake. Tak sabarnya nak try. Anyway, we're having a potluck at Abang's tomorrow. I heard so many are people coming and I thought this event just kecik-kecik only. *LOL* I'm going to make my usual potato salad. I hope it will turn out okay this round. The other time, it was more like mash potato, but surpisingly, habis, licin and kena make some more :) okay lah, tired, jalan-jalan cari barang-barang nak masak and everything tadi. + bukak puasa with my sis, Kate, comel sangat. first time jumpa dia with tudung. So sweet! okay lah. Toodles!

out

"she doesn't aspect him to like her. who the hell is she anyway? she is no body to him but don't be surprise if she and he doesn't get along very well"

:)

Dah call sekolah-sekolah tu, yay! selesai dah kerja.

Wanna go out and have some fun!

Toodles!~

Call for me please!

Tolong call kan sekolah-sekolah tu boleh? Grrrrr

dang~

I need coffee!

Noticed

I noticed that person doesn't want to be around whenever I'm there. If I'm not there, that person will be there. I guess that person does not like me, even though other person tries to make that person go. Like one incident where, forget it! Not just one, I've lost count already. It is just too bad that other person can't see the fact that, that person does not like me.

09.09.09

Hello 09.09.09 !

Geez!~

Hello! I have so many things to do in a limited time, and yet I still can find time to play 'Sorority Life.' I wish the time would just freeze for a moment and let my soul runs free. *sigh* Another sleepless night I presume. I have midterm at 10am tomorrow. I better go and finish off my report. Later~

Its Friday and Im in UIA

I'm here! surprise! *LOL* Mamet and I went to see Dr.Subraji to collect the cohesive links list. Then on our way back, we bump into Dr.Haja, he told us that he had watched the theater. The funny thing is he remembered my part and my one particular line. So sweet of him :) anyway, now I'm in my room, very sleepy. I want to sleep for awhile. Later I'll go back home. Toodles!~

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Elmo : Babi, sial, stupid, mother F!!!

Mamet : Ish hang ni ema, astaghfirlahhulazim. Mulut macam celaka.

Elmo : ?????

Malas Please Go Away

Mamet and I went to JJ at Au2 today. Berbuka at Black Canyon *forgot the spelling* again. The food sedap jugak lah, kena dengan my taste. I bought wrapping papers for my table. It is so yummy! Okay, need to do semantics and sleep. Toodles!~

My table :)

Sangat yummy!

Macam mana nak study ni? *Hehehe*

Rindu dia!

Obsessed

Obsesi! I want a new cage for my babies. Grrr!

Caci Cacu Caca

Caci lah.

Caci selagi boleh.

Yelah, kita ni apa lah sangat. Hina.

Hina sangat!

Kalau nak bandingkan dengan mereka tu.

Jauh berbeza.

Macam langit dengan bumi.

Kena macam ini. Kena macam tu.

Tak boleh macam ni. Tak boleh macam tu.

Susah!

Apa boleh buat?

Tak dijemput.

Tak kan nak menjemput diri sendiri.

Aku ni apa lah sangat.

Tak ada apa-apa pun.

Terhina jer.

Hati sakit.

Biar jer lah~

Semoga berbahagia ke anak cucu!

Everything is good

Thank God, Alhamdulillah. Everything was good yesterday. Gemuruh tak terhingga, tapi alhamdulillah, semua okay. YAHOOO!!!!!

Help!

Im really annoyed with this one person. She is so annoying. I don't really know you okay! stop asking me questions. Polis pencen ke? Busy body! No wonder your friends left you. Kalau tanya elok-elok takpa jugak, ni macam-macam kau nak tau. Why? You want to pick up my dad from KLIA is it? Screw you!~

Chali : Yes yes, ala I played soccer for fun jer, during PJ. Over excited sangat but that time I dapat one week cuti sebab tak leh jalan. Im okay now, sakit sikit jer, kakak helped to urut my kaki. Thank God my scene duduk jer. *ehhehe* btw, I'm getting ready to go to practice la ni =D

Sejarah Berulang Lagi

I know the title may sound lame to you, but believe me it doesn't have anything to do with the song. Yesterday, I went to practice as usual. I was over excited when we are told to do like kung-fu action. Guess what happen. My knee "snapped" siap bunyi lagi and I fell. I kept on laughing but serious shit I was in pain. Luckily I can still walk. Back then, when I was in form 3 the same thing had happened. At that time, it was because I played soccer and some how my knee snapped and I cannot even walk. Now I'm in a lot of pain. I hate this feeling. ARGH! I NEED PAIN KILLER!

Bumblebee!

I want this please! :)

I went to Toy'R'Us twice today just to check this thing out. I want it so bad!

Charlie : Yes, affandi awang, terkejut kot bila budak2 tu cakap dah tukar lecturer. TAKOT! *LOL* yes, tidoq uia :D

Roommates

I'm glad that my new roommates are okay. Occupant of compartment A is Alya. She is an engineering student and this is her final semester. She is the same age as I am. Compartment B is yours truly, me and compartment D is occupied by a Sarawakian, Rika. She reminds me of Epah. My room is quite okay. I slept like the dead. I was supprised that I could wake up early. Usually my morning is night and my night is day. Anyway, went to the first class, world literature. Quayum seems quite okay but I can't help but to feel abit chill in his class. I'm not sure if its because of the room is too cold or his presence. Second class was fun. Subra is funny. Now is 12.16pm and I'm updating my blog. Appearently, intro to fiqh class was cancelled. Our lecturer is not Wan Rumaizi anymore. He was replaced by Affandi Awang what is his name, I'm not sure. Anyways, Mamet said his stomach is growling, (takut kene pukul dgn mamet) got to go. LATER~

Pretty wing

I was reading this article in Cleo's last issue regarding how some people are trying too hard to fit in. Reminds me of someone. Some people tend to over do it just to be accepted. However, I've learned my mistake back when I was in high school. Now, I rather stand out in a crowd and be myself. Like in the article, "Stay true to yourself". anyways these are the signs if you are trying TOO HARD -

• you always agree with the other person no matter the topic.
• you find yourself talking up your job/your boyfriend/friends to impress others.
• you're willing to compromise your beliefs and morals if it means you'll accepted by your friends.
• you love everything your friends wear and buy same clothes (so you end up looking like identical twins)
  
• you have an opinion about everything. its just that it changes to match whoever you're with.
• you find yourself in random places and doing things you'd always told yourself you'd never do.

It does not matter if you like your friend's things. Friends shares the same interest. So, no surprise if one has the same/similar to the outfit or things of their friends. Why try too hard to fit in? Friends will accept you no matter who you are unless you over done it. Been there, done that. I guess I've grown out of it. It was a terrible mistake and I'd learned my lesson. Long and slightly different story but in other words I was like agak poyo and mean lah back then. :)
Anyway, DON'T BE A POSER! It would not help you. Be real to yourself, do not change your believes and morals just because you want to be cool like your friends. Another quotation from the article,

"If you make fitting in your highest priority, you run the risk of being exposed as a FAKE".

Bila Garfield Boring

I was arranging Sid's cage and Garfield decided to let himself in. wth? Tak muat lah Garfield. Btw, don't worry. Sid was not in there with him. He was in the bonding pouch at that time. Garfield, you amazed me. Anyway, my holiday is coming to end and class will start soon. *woohooo* Only 4 class + photography class. NO evening classes yahooo!!! + no class on friday! YAY! These past few days I've been running around buying my things for the new sem. Semangat! Need to wash my face then off the bed. Later~

Haneem : Thanks anem. *hehhehe* sayang anak-anak I :)

Chali : Yes, now ada 2 :) Fazz suka sangat! *LOL* + if you want to shop online ni url dia :- http://forum.lowyat.net/LYNStreetMart I selalu tengok-tengok barang kat sini. Even pet's stuff pun ada banyak orang jual kat sini. Selamat ber-shopping online!

Baby Girl

I got my baby girl today! I'm so happy! Currently calling her Girl because I haven't decided what to name her. She's cute and way smaller than Sid. I realize that Sid had grown so much bigger. Mummy love you, Sid! and Girl too :)

online

Shopping online is fun!

Idle No More - Jordan replied my message!

What happened to me? Why the long silence. Well just to let you know that I'm still alive and kicking. I've been spending time, well wasting a lot of time playing games and doing other things in facebook. IM ADDICTED. Help!~

The reason why Im updating my blog now at 4:34 am is because JORDAN HOLLAND replied my message. Who is Jordan Holland? I watched MTV Made yesterday afternoon and came across this guy. He is overweight (and kaki dia macam cacat sikit because of his weight) but he was determine to become the high school Prom King. This episode really hit my heart. He is such a pure and genuinely nice guy, even though he has various daily struggles to face. I cried when I witness how determine he is and he did it, he was crowned the Prom King. He deserves nothing less than the best of success. He did record a song on the show entitled "King For A Day". His voiced touched my heart and he inspired me. His voice is so pure that I can't help but to cry everytime I hear his song. I understand his feelings and how hard it is to go through all the things to achieve his dreams. Some people may say that he is funny and loud guy but if you listen to his song and relate to what he had been through, it really touches your heart.

So, I said to myself, I have to find him in facebook and I did. I send him a message a few hours a go. At 4.20, he replied my message. I can't believe it. I talked to him for a bit. He is nice. I hope I can meet him one day. He really inspired me.

TO JORDAN, if you're reading this, thank you for your sincerity and how honest you are when doing the show. Don't stop believing in yourself. I believe in you. Don't let anyone put you down. Never give up. Thank you for inspiring people.

Toodles~

I'm leaving for Bandung this weekend. We're supposed to go to Bangkok, changed planned and decided to go Bandung instead. We don't want to take any chances in case la sat lagi ada riot lagi. We'll be staying at The Luxton. According to my mum, its a new and modern concept hotel. can't wait. Im so excited but the only thing is im too lazy to pack my things. kakak tolong lah dik ema! It sad though, Farah will be arriving here on Saturday :'( sedih tak dapat jumpa, tapi takpa on the 1st boleh jumpa! yay! I miss her! Should I bring my laptop to Bandung? I think I should :D

Pictures - Fraser's Hill

Here are the pictures of what I took for my dad research. Its call Lichen. Its part fungus and alga. According to my dad, it will take them years to grow, bit by bit. It is very delicate. It was fun helping my dad, at least I got to hang out with him and see how he does his work. Although at times I'll freak out because I'm afraid of pacat! Thank God, takda seekor pun. Before you're going up to Fraser's Hill there is this big billboard with strawberries picture. Naik atas tu, haram gila. Tak ada pun, kat Cameron Highlands ada la! GRRR!!! KENA TIPU! Anyway, I had fun except for the part my dad left me alone in the hotel to meet his friends. Damn scary lah at night. I was alone and there was no air con or fan, so my dad had left the window open. It was suppost to be cooler lah, but you know lah now kan global warming. Memang panas lah. Anyway, its was dark outside, like really gelap because our room was facing the golf course. Scary gila. Thanks dad! : ) I hope my dad will be bring me again to take pictures for his work. Best lah, makan, minum, tempat tinggal semua free. *LOL*

Dad taking sample for his research

Pictures - Graduation Dinner

I'm gonna miss these people

Especially them :'(

Pictures - Sunburst!

Pictures

Right, to view pictures is to upload the pictures first. Grrr! Nanti lah~ I have all the time in the world kan. Anyway, I'm going to Bandung this weekend. Yahoo! My first trip to Indonesia. can't wait~

IM FREE!!!

YAHOO!! I'm finally free!!!! MERDEKA! damn it! no one to celebrate with. takde orang dah time tu. jerit dalam hati jer bila jam tepat pukul 5 tadi.

Gembira, tapi tak tahan sebak di dada. Rasa macam ada kekosongan nanti.

One down, 5 more to go.

malas nak update.

penat. tapi mata tak nak tutup. damn you mata!

pergi melahap grill chicken kat Castle tadi. sebab tak tau nak pergi makan kat mana. *burrrp*

lapar lah. tengah hari makan roti kaya pandan sweetie jer.

tadi lah. bukan sekarang :)

jeles tengok mak ayah datang ambil anak-anak kat hostel tadi.

bila mak ayah nak buat macam tu?

depa malaih nak mai amek sebab tu la depa bagi cheq kereta, mangkuk.

dah mengarut ni sebenarnya.

nak tido.

zzzzz. bukan depan laptop la.

aish!

Bengang

Ada a few things yang macam menyakit kan hati babe. kenapa bila kita baik dengan orang, orang naik atas kepala kita? Sakit hati la. dah besar, pikir sendiri lah. aku ni bukan chop ****. malas nak cakap sebenarnya. kang cakap tersinggung. susah susah. ingat aku ni free **** ke? bengang la oi. *****************************************
benci! takpa la. bengang bengang pun kejap ja. makan hati jer. tapi tak suka makan hati, pedal lagi sedap takpa. suka hati kau la labu. buat la apa nak buat.

lagi satu bengang sebab paper MMS. susah gila. First question okay lagi, mai tang Quranic verses and Hadith. mampuih tak tau nak kata apa. ingat hadith dari paper Methods of Da'wah jah.

anyway today did some shopping. no my friend, not for me. its for SID. im officially broke. dengan *************************** ari tu************************** lagi yang tu laa. ungreatful child. i bought dried mealworms for him and i had to hold it while trying to get him to eat it. anyway, what im trying to say is, saya berjaya pegang cacing yang dah mampus hari ni. okay im off to pack my things. Im going to Fraser's Hill with my dad to help him with his work. Im taking pictures for his research. BAH! Harap-harap takda pacat! sebab tadi ayah cakap ada stokin pacat! takot~ SO LONG~

KL Bird Park

On 2nd April, my friends and I visited 'KL Bird Park'. I decided to focus on birds for my final photography project. It was a last minute thing. The park was okay though, comparing to Zoo Negara. Tiring, but fun. My sifu was there with me; Aizah. She helped me a lot. Kate became our subjects and they also helped (thanks guys!!). Anyway, yesterday, I went to uia to submit my assignment. However, the studio was closed. no one inside. called and text-ed encik azman, he didn't answer. I was in a hurry because dad was reaching KL central at 3, it was like 2.15pm at that time. I had no choice but to slide the assignment under the door. it was embarrasing though, the first attempt the thing didn't slide through. *LOL* then when it finally went in. i realize damn, its a glass door, surely everyone who passes by this door can see the photos I had taken. DAMN IT. whatever. the grand finale was when i wanted to get my car which was at the first bus stop and it was raining heavily. I had no choice but to redah the hujan. soaking wet. I think I better stop here. no need to know what happen. *MALU*

Ma sayang Pa sangat-sangat

WTF? Seriously nak muntah. Kene hantar mak pergi kerja hari ni. Anyway, this morning on my way back to my house, i was listening to the radio. I tuned to Xfresh.fm and I heard The DJ whoever his name is, was talking to this one girl, appearently the girl has an affair with another guy, when he asked why. she said because her boyfriend did it first, meaning he also had an affair with another girl. i guess she wants revenge. FINE. but then the DJ said, "Do you want to say anything to your boyfriend". The girl; "ya, MA SAYANG PA SANGAT-SANGAT" LMAO!!!! Seriously nak muntah. I was laughing my ass off. yuck! please. it is bad enough with "abang and ayang" ni, "MA and Pa" ingat dah ada anak ke? please AHHAHAHHA serious funny. kalau dah kahwin ada anak, takpa jugak. wek wek. TEKAK GELI!~

yay!

Aizah and Kate were here just now. They came to visit me : ) I was so happy that they came. Thank you girls! Love you always~

Sick!

I didn't go to class today. Yes. I hate fever. Seriously. Your whole body stops functioning. Sad, indeed very sad!

I LOVE KORN!

I can't believe that I was there to watch Korn performed at Sunburst. I know it sounds so lame, but I almost cried when I saw Johnathan Davis with his band mates; Head and Munky. I'm speechless seriously. I'm lost in words. I have the performance was the bomb! Rugi-rugi to those yang tak pergi. It is once in a life time for them to perform here in Malaysia, well in the future we don't know. John said they waited 15 years to get in Malaysia. I was lucky to get the chance to see them perform. I still can't believe that i was there. seriously. i mean after all these years. i've been listening/watching them on tv, radio and the internet. my dream came true. ahhhh i don't know what to say. IM DAMN HAPPY! HAPPY HAPPY HAPPY! I went to Bukit Kiara at 2pm. It was worth it, paying rm203 for the 12 hours non stop entertainment. He was there with me till the end. Awhhh! He saved me from mosh-pit. :D Found Helmi and Jaliya, chill with them. Saw few people I know. NERD performance rocks! but Korn was the best! love love love love..... (i'll post some pictures..later? when? we'll wait and see laaahh)

KORN = SUNBURST

YAY! got the tickets! Can't wait to see Korn perform! I LOVE JOHN DAVIS. i hope i won't faint during their performance.

junk yard sale

junk yard sale? hmmm..... its gonna be chaotic. my schedule is hectic. but im going to try to make it happen. im selling off my earings, soaps and my slippers. its time already :D

Penat!

Hari ini penat, esok penat, lusa lagi penat. Hari-hari penat. Nak minum susu -full cream milk. sedapnya. Otak penat. Kaki penat. Mata penat. Im starting to get irritated by u-knoe-who already. please God, help me! buta ke? tak nampak? sakit hati. menyampah. benci. semua ada. tapi sabar jer la. tapi perasaan saya pergi mana? help me find it please.

i miss him. need to see him.

Keita Kun get together

My cousins were here to celebrate Keita's first birthday just now. Maktok was here, Abang and Fatin were also here to celebrate the cute lil' occasion. His father, abang Takashi, is in Japan right now, but he manage to witness his only son celebrated his first birthday. HOW? well, he was on the webcam. The works of technology, its great! We had ice cream cake. its damn sedap. I love ice cream cake. Keita is so cute. the picture below was taken a few hours ago. he is so cute! Kawaii!~ if any of you guys wondering, he is half malay and half japanese :D lagi dua orang kakak dia pun cute juga! macam cousin diaorang (cousin ke? aunty already) sorang ni =D

Arif's Birthday Dinner

21/2/2008 (yesterday)

HAPPY 1st BIRTHDAY KEITA-KUN!

Happy birthday to my baby cousin, keita. He is ONE already :) I thought we were having his birthday get together on the 21st, but it was actually today (22/2/09). Anyway, Aizah and I had plan a birthday dinner for Arif, since it was his birthday on the 17th. I have to say - Mission accomplish! we had the birthday dinner at Castle, Ampang. there were 14 of us all together. it was fun! the food was great. i'd made friends with Judy, who works there. She is so baik. She takes good care of me and my friends while we were there. Especially when she had to wait for us while we were busy deciding what to order. Guess what, the first time I was there in castle, I was a bit high but this time it was okay. didn't feel high or dizzy. i was bloated. anyway, i came home with a happy tummy, even though it was quite late, but thank God, Mum was cool with it. *LOL* (i'll post some pictures later) busy lah!!

Sushi!

On Friday, Kate and I decided to have a lunch date with our good ol' friend, Helmi! It was nice to see him again. I wanted to cry but it was a happy occasion, why should I cry. We ate sushi, and we talk and talk. Hang out at the park, so many memories there. I still remembered how it was like when we used to hang out in KLCC. Those were the days. Anyway, we had fun. I think we should hang out more often =D HAPPY!

dear lie! you suck!

Dear lie
You're dumb
You think you've got the best of me
You think you've won
Misread my vulnerability
Now get the hell away from me
I've learned your heart
Won't let you unnerve me
Won't let you control me
The truth will only free you
And your lies won't hurt
No more

Happy Birthday Ariff!

Happy 23rd Birthday Arif!

*hehhe akhirnya gambar ni berjaya diuploadkan :) *

Stuck alone inside your head

there's nowhere to run and hide,
when you're living a lie,
stuck alone inside your head,
better off dead.

Dang!~

I'm having sore throat and I HATE IT! Need to read error now! Toodles!

Tension

Today sucks, well a bit only. Im so pissed with this one person. Damn la nak tegur-tegur. Duduk jer bukan buat maksiat. Okay maybe I forget where I was. Some people can be so so, lame and shallow. Please lah. Pagi-pagi dah bikin panas. Forget it, hate! hate! hate! Whatever. Its my fucking life. I don't give a damn what you're gonna say about me. Its my life. I choose my own path, my style, you deal with yours on your own, your way. Stop bugging my life. Okay sebenarnya benda ni kecik jer, tapi macam bengang sangat. Bear with me people, SO HELP ME GOD!

P/S : Got home from class, found dad watching TV. I realize how much I missed him. I thought off going to bed early but decided to skip snooze time just to accompany dad, to pick mum at her office. :'( dad...

Vitas bay-beh

I'm addicted to his voice. His voice is amazing! Enjoy the video clip.

Gong Xi Fa Chai

Wishing everyone;

"Gong Xi Fa Chai"

Me and My best friend

I went to my second photography class yesterday (21/01/2009). Guess what? My "best friend" was there! *AHAHAH* My best friends has a SLR but she don't know how to open her lens. so much for "ni beg untuk camera". Tu la bila berlagak pandai, jadi macam tu la. i mean seriously im not being a jerk here, but hey she's the one who started it. Kita datang untuk belajar sama-sama. bukan untuk berlagak. Susah betul dengan orang berlagak pandai ni. Yer lah, dia seorang jer yang mahir/pakar/berilmu ambik gambar. kita ni tak pandai, miskin sebab tu ambik kelas photography. Sheesh! Dah la tak tahu apa-apa, bila berlagak pandai sangat lepas tu siapa yang malu bila salah, diri sendiri. Please lah, kita nak belajar, bukan nak tunjuk siapa hebat. Seriously I'm still new in this and I want to learn so that i can gain my knowledge in photography. BUKAN NAK SHOW OFF PANDAI GUNA CAMERA OR AMIK GAMBAR. PLEASE LAH. WAKE UP! Whatever lah, like i said in my previous entry, maybe she'll become one of my good friends in the future :)

I really want this!

Can anyone be kind enough to buy me this book? I'll love you for that. ehehhe :D please please, with lots of sugar on top. I want!!! *uhuhuhu*

yummy jelly cheese cake!

Im eating this weird cheese cake with jelly on top. but actually the cheese itself its like a jelly. it looks weird and when you think about it, it makes you wonder how the hell does it taste like. Well, i believe in don't judge a book by its cover, so i had a bite. ITS DAMN NICE. straight away called my mum and asked where did she get it from. she said she bought it at a new shop in bukit jalil. Ahhh its damn nice and i'm enjoying it now. yummy! love it love it! the jelly is sweet, the cheese is a bit sour and the biscuits add the 'umph!' *ehhehe* Lay-tah peeh-ple, need some time to enjoy my cake. yummy! LATER~

T.T Session

I love T.T sessions. I love being around my brothers. they are fun! Since i've been sleeping all day. atleast I had a chance to go out and have a drink. I had neslo ice just now, that is why i'm still here updating my blog. Well, here are some of the pictures taken last wednesday;

Kung Fu Fighting!

Love this pic!

Sugar Glider - Sid Shadow

Please anyone care to explain to me?

He looked at the camera. how adorable!