aimis-yuh

Hello there!

I miss you!

*I can not say that to your face, dummy.

Damn it, I'm shy la.

I believe in fate.

tetibe.

?

(bunyi cricket)

sedarhana v.s jumbo

Hello.

Haritu pergi makan dengan kawan-kawan.
Order air.
Abg air datang bawak 3 cawan air. Satu jumbo dua sedarhana.
Abg air renung tajam dan cakap "yang jumbo ni mesti awak punya" (something like that)

Wtf?!

Masih boleh tahan dan cakap "ini kita punya" (sambil tarik air pisang sedarhana)

Balik rumah, baring atas katil sambil nangis tak berhenti sampai tertidur.



P/s: orang gemuk atau gempal hanya boleh order minuman size jumbo, kalau order size sedarhana tu dikira luar biasa? Habis tu tak kan orang kurus tak boleh minum air size jumbo kena minum air size sedarhana je?

Ikhlas tapi jauh

Bila-bila kiranya diri ku perlu,
Hari yang murung,
Terdengar nada yang riang.

Selagi bahuku memikul bebannya,
Selagi hayat ku merasa siksa mu,
Selama senyuman menjadi senyumku,

Ku bawa wajah mu, walau diriku jauh.

Penang visitor - live traffic feed

I wonder who read my blog all the way from penang?

Zaki ke?

Ahhahahahahahahahahaha

Dream on ema! Dream on!

Greetings from bangkok

Hello! Or sawadeeka!

Finally can sit down, relax and update this blog. My parents are getting their foot massage at this moment. Me? Well chillexing on a comfy chair. Done with shopping, continue later. I have another 2 days to go. Im quite upset since i got to know that kate will undergo the operation on monday. Pity her. I know she will be okay. Can't believe she has to go through that but its for her own good and her health. Im praying for her safety. I'll come and see you babe. I don't know why im crying la right now. Sedih la. Demmit. Big hug for you dear, be strong kay! Love u! See you when i get back and by then you'll be okay, insyaAllah. Love u babe!

Some updates;
- weather is quite hot.
- food is great like always. I love their fried cat fish. Coffee dekat tepi jalan pun sedap jugak! Tak payah pegi starbucks.
- bought some stuff and more to come.
- flood at some parts of bangkok near the chao praya river. I hope we won't be affected.
- tomorrow ayah is off to conference, just me and my mum. Apa lagi, kikis duit dia.

As for now, chan kit thueng khun.

could this not last forever

its just a phase

yeah, its just a phase

the Happy Bee

Happy birthday Aizah & Dalila!

:)

take your hand, and walk away

such a lonely day,

should be banned,

it's a day that i can't stand,

such a lonely day,

shouldn't exist,

it's a day that i'll never miss.

such a lonely day,

and it's mine,

it's a day that i'm glad i survived.

soad - lonely day

rain part 2.

sekarang adalah masa yang sangat sesuai untuk jalan-jalan dalam hujan,

lebih-lebih lagi dalam keadaan yang macam shitty ni,

confirm, tak ada orang yang perasan.

confirm.

raya

Selamat Hari Raya!

Maaf Zahir & Batin!

Menyusun sepuluh jari memohon kemaafan keatas segala kesalahan yang telah di lakukan.

tapi, mood raya tetap tak ada!

sigh!

party

not looking forward for raya, fullstop. thee

its 1.10am, i think my neighbor (few doors away) buat party or something, kawan-kawan dia bising nak mati. gelak macam syaitan mengalahkan i. dah la buat party and bising, tak ajak pula tu!

anyway, my next door neighbor (memang sebelah) ni tak marah or complain pula since neighbor dia buat party and tak ajak tu is making so much noise. Dulu, my cat nak mengawan, marah sebab bising sangat. what do you aspect from a single mother horny cat?

stupid.

a friendly reminder to my neighbor, next time please invite your neighbors lah, where is your neighborhood spirit? i also want to scream and clap my hands loudly so that my other neighbors cannot sleep before sahur time.

disturb

just moments ago, i was happily playing games on facebook, minding my own business when i realized something moved in front of me and i honestly thought it was dust but i was wrong! that-dust thingy came back and it was a freaking cockroach. pandi kutik lah! i was in shock man, i can't even scream. mouse dah kena campak, lepas tu, gua mengensot babe, how it happened, i don't really know. sampai nak terjatuh la. terpaksa kejut Normi. She simply catched the little fellow and flushed it down the toilet. gosh! and i almost kena heart attack! thanks mr.cockroach for disturbing my peace!!!

underneath the disguise of a smile, gradually im dying inside

"friends ask me how i feel and i lie convincingly

cause i don't want to reveal

the fact that i'm suffering

so i wear my disguise, till i go home at night

and turn down all the lights

and then i break down and cry"

mariah carey - breakdown

Quickly

I'm back!

:)

no more jet lags.

just some quick updates;

Epah's & Sham's baby boy - Danish Aniq, 020710, 1106am.

Lilo is 1 year old *yay!*

missing my friends,

I bought a new phone with my own money, first time. *sampai berpeluh masa bayar*

I managed to splashed my hard earn two months salary on macaroons, my things, nephew's things and souvenirs.

I was able to belanja my parents makan kat sana. *phew*

after all the shopping I did when I was in London and Paris,

I went shopping again last Sunday, wth kan?

guilty!!!

luckily, Normi was cool with it, since she also wants to use the things I bought,

*sigh*

I'm going to Cameron Highlands next week, helping dad with his work again!

yay!

I guess thats all for now.

toodles!

mau tidoq!

hiatus

hiatus for 2 weeks!

:)

gonna miss everyone.

ala.

2 weeks jer.

but rindu jugak!

if only i can pack everyone with me.

sigh!

see you in 2 weeks time.

p/s: Hopefully, i'll be here before Epah delivers her baby! can't wait. more babies! yay! :)

emotionally stirred

can't sleep! im done packing my stuff. less than 24 hours to go. + i can't wait to see farish in the morning! cepat lah siang!

all my bags are NOT packed BUT i'm ready to go

less than 48 hours to go,

i haven't pack anything yet,

still.

die!

can someone please pack my things for me?

or better yet, pack me as well and ship me off.

: )

clearance

I'm done with clearance,

its heart breaking,

sad,

indeed very sad.

it took me quite sometime to get the clearance done,

I'm just taking my time, I guess.

Anyway,

I'm in IRK lab right now,

reminiscing how me and Mamet always spend our time here after class.

*LOL*

well, thank God, I'm staying nearby,

I can swing by anytime I want.

:)

I'm going to back to Batu Gajah for my cousin's wedding this Thursday

hush hush. i might be going to Penang also, one day trip.

then back to Batu Gajah for the reception on Saturday.

Sunday back to KL

Busy busy busy!

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8 more days to go!

I haven't pack anything yet.

die!

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I'm just killing my time right this moment,

waiting to pick up my boss from work.

I sound so serious.

wth?

okay lah, I'm in my CW mood.

so, toodles!

untitled

12 more days

: )

Legend International Water Homes

My friends (Kate, Stephanie and Veronica) and I went to Port Dickson for a weekend getaway. Running away from reality. *LOL* Anyway, the journey took us about 1 hour. When we arrived in PD, we drove around to find the hotel that we wanted to stay, its called 'Legend International Water Homes'. Dang it, i forgot to snap the big logo thingy! whatever! Anyway, after that, we went back to just before Teluk Kemang and had our breakfast by the beach. The funny thing was, we forgot to bring the tikar, so no choice but to sit on the newspaper and our butts were slightly wet because of the rain. Stephanie was practically screaming because of the big ants. What la you darling! The weather was quite okay. It was as though the sun taking a short rest and giving us a break with a wonderful cooling weather. After breakfast, we checked-in into the hotel. Parking is free, which is a plus! We arrived slightly earlier than planned, but the reception guy, Calvin was kind enough to checked in earlier. As the room is quite far from the lobby, buggy service was provided for us to go to our rooms, nice! When we reached our room, everyone was screaming because the room is so nice. The room is a villa that is above the sea, can see the sea through a glass window on the floor. The swimming pool is overlooking the sea. Everything is perfect, of course, as the place was open only 6 months ago, according to Mr. Naim who drove the buggy. The shower is build with a huge window that overlooked the sea, while bathing, can open the window and hear the sound of the waves splashing. *bliss* we quickly jump into the pool (obviously change our clothes first). The bed was so comfy and we stayed in the room most of the time. We wanted to spend our time just for the room, since it is really nice. Sunset is like heaven, the view from our room was breathtaking. At night, we arranged candles all the over the pool, and we had roasted marshmallow and crackers which was of course dipped with chocolate. *yummy!* This morning, at 7am, Veronica woke me up saying its 8am. *LOL* I know she was very excited to get into the pool. So Kate and I quickly joined her. Surprisingly, the water was not that cold, it was just nice. It was sad to leave, but I know for sure that one day I'll go there again! Hopefully soon!

P/S: pictures coming soon!

weekend getaway

Hello! just a quick update. weekend getaway was awesome!

one wishlist done! thanks veron for reminding me

:)

now,

back to reality!

sigh!~

holiday!

SAYA MAU PERGI HOLIDAY! PLS!

mau lepak tepi laut,

or

hang out by the pool

*sigh*

Suara yang nyaring

I just had a long cold shower and started to think, about my voice.

Dimanakah suara aku?

suara aku tidak didengari.

di rumah? hah! bagaikan si bisu mahu bercakap.

di luar? argh! aku laung kan suara nyaring.

malangnya, tiada siapa yang mendengar,

masih gagal.

dimanakah suara aku?

Suara yang tidak mempegaruhi sesiapa.

suara si gagal,

suara tidak lunak.

suara yang nyaring.

pasti dihindari.

cuba mencari semangat untuk bersuara,

supaya suara akan diakui

tidak nyaring lagi.

AKU's day out - OU

I heart them!

the boy who stole my heart

3am, my brother told me that he is taking fatin to SDMC. luckily the water bag broke when fatin was in the toilet right after they reached the hospital. my parents said that i must stay at home and wait till morning. i was anxious! i couldn't sleep. i talked to garfield and prayed to God, for my sister's and the baby's health.

10am, reached SDMC, fatin was still in the labor room. abang getting nervous.

12pm, mum and i talked to the nurse, she said its about time.

1.28pm, abang called me. i got up and he said, "ema, your nephew, farish is here already". tears of joy!

Muhammad Farish - 3.72kg

the parents - Aki & Fatin!

goyang kaki?

hello there! how are you? its been awhile since my last entry. im done with exams and classes for good. but guess what, i miss it already! esp my friends!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! gah! btw, im working at the moment with my parents. yes yes as a driver again but this time with salary. *yay!* well some may think its a lousy and easy job. but hey, try driving around KL and going through the traffic jams. its emotionally tiring as you have to deal with those idiots driving their car/lorry and even those bikers without considering other people. + i work hard for my money. i don't just goyang kaki or wait for someone to give me money except for my parents. it might not seem that big a deal for most people, especially those who think it's okay to live off their boyfriends money but i was raised not to expect others to take care of me. even though the money comes from my parents but i still work hard for it. anyway, the pay is quite good. wanna save the money and wanna go holiday somewhere! *heeee!* hari tu ada dengar ada graduation gift, i wonder what? *ehhehe* better be something good. im expecting my first nephew to pop out either this week or next week! i can't wait. excited aunty here!~ :)

time could never mend

time flies very fast these days. tup tap. its at the end of the semester already. im gonna miss my friends, driving to class while blasting the songs out loud, going to classes, hang out in HS cafe, ponteng class *LOL* datang class lambat, going out with my friends, coaxing, haih!!! last Thursday was really hard for me. as i drove off from uia. can't help to cry. sedih lah!

not that way,

i can't live without you,

can't be without you,

im begging you to stay.

please stay!

i wanted other chances to adore you,

i don't want to have to live my life in misery,

i wasn't ready for you to set me free.

*sigh*

might as well just kill me.

how can i?

how can i love you tonight?

when you know that you love somebody else,

and i know you're not mine.

stand in front of me,

so i can see,

tell me what's on your mind,

why don't you give yourself to me,

i know i shouldn't tell you,

cause i know you're not mine.

you and me,

its not the way its supposed to be,

but i can't help myself,

how can i?

untitled

decided to step back

give space

so that you can be happy

with your life

bye!

hey you. listen.

heyy there,

don't you know that im alive and well.

don't you worry.

im not taken aback.

don't feel sorry about anything

im not looking for sympathy.

difficult

take a walk i'll hold your hands for now,

its happening,

makes it hard to lose another night,

its difficult, to soothe a wounded heart.

before you go, give me all of your love,

i'll give you all of mine

i'll drink water because my blood has died,

its different than anything you've seen or heard before.

take a picture and hold that smile forever.

if it makes it easier,

wish it could be easier,

i can't breathe in.

perasaan cilanat part 2

boleh tolong pergi jauh-jauh?

aku tak ada mood la nak main game ni.

game lagi satu pun tak habis-habis lagi.

ni,

ish!

perasaan,

please, listen to me,

berambus cepat!!!

betul ke ni?

Never Knew I Needed - Ne-Yo

For the way you changed my plans
for being the perfect distraction
for the way you took the idea that i have
of everything that i wanted to have
and made me see there was something missing
for the ending of my first begin
and for the rare and unexpected friend
for the way you’re something that i never choose
but at the same time something i don’t wanna lose
and never wanna be without ever again

You’re the best thing i never knew i needed
so when you were here i had no idea
you’re the best thing i never knew i needed
so now it’s so clear i need you here always

My accidental happily
(ever after)
the way you smile and how you comfort me
(with your laughter)
i must admit you were not a part of my book
but now if you open it up and take a look
you’re the beginning and the end of every chapter

You’re the best thing i never knew i needed
so when you were here i had no idea
you’re the best thing i never knew i needed
so now it’s so clear i need you here always

Who’d knew that i’d be here
so unexpectedly
undeniably happy
said with you right here, right here next to me

Girl you’re the..
you’re the best thing i never knew i needed
so when you were here i had no idea
you’re the best thing i never knew i needed
so now it’s so clear i need you here always

Now it’s so clear i need you here always

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hmmm...

apa cer?

nangis dengar lagu ni?

what is this?

help!

tell me it is not true?!

please!

i need some help here!

no!!!!

it can't be!!!!

no way!!!!

i need a tight slap!

bring me back to earth!

argh!!!

trial run

time will bring the real end of our trial

one day they'll be no remnants

no trace, no residual feelings within ya

one day you won't remember me

your face will be the reason i smile

but i will not see what i cannot have forever

i'll always love ya, i hope you feel the same

you played me dirty, your game was so bad

you toyed with my affliction

had to fill out my prescription

found the remedy, i had to set you free

away from me

to see clearly the way that love can be

when you are not with me

i had to leave, i have to live

i turned day into night
sleep till i die a thousand times
i should have showed you
better nights better times better days
i miss you more and more

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harap maklum : tiada kena mengena-gena dengan si polan bernama lahanat!

mungkin ada kena-mengena dengan si polan yang lain.

hmm..

*sigh*

what the f* is happening to me?

betul ke apa yang aku rasa ni?

oi perasaan, jangan lah main-main.

tak larat tau!

tambahan pula, aku rasa si polan lebih setanding dengan si bunga mawar.

aku?

rafflesia jer.

what the hell am i saying?

shut!

hmmm...

*sigh*

tak mungkin.

rain

i like to walk in the rain,

because,

i don't want anyone to see me cry.

nak bau hujan!

tadi hujan.

dah lama tak bau hujan.

lupa nak buka tingkap!~

dang~

bobo

* To Akmal, at 2.45 am, tetiba jer, i remembered this.

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Elmo : Bodoh! what the hell? bodoh sial dia tu!

Akmal : (tanpa perasaan) tak baik cakap orang bodoh, bodoh.

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yes lah, thanks met! : )

sia-sial

tried to post an entry. but i didn't have the guts. maybe later. just save it for now.

later~

7e moment

Aduh pakcik, kenapa la kena duduk luar 7e tu. banyak benda pops up in my mind, mesti dia sejuk, nyamuk, mana datang luka-luka kat tangan dia, macam-macam benda. apa la sangat aku boleh buat? betul cakap anem, mana anak-anak dia? sedara mara? ish! tu yang kat tepi jalan? ni dulu ada lecturer, kitaorang panggil dia 'tok ayah'. Dia jalan pun slow jer. aduh! hati ni, tak tahan tengok. SEDIH! hati ni macam tisu kalau tengok orang-orang tua. air mata ni memang turun dengan senang lenang. i wish i could do something to help them. grrr!!!!!!!! argh! sucks to be helpless... :"(

perasaan cilanat

aku benci perasaan ni.

malas nangis lagi.

tak guna nangis sebegini.

hati sendiri disakiti!

perasaan, tolong lah pergi,

jangan pulang selagi di kehendaki,

jika ada peluang bertemu lagi,

jangan lahanatkan pertemuan yang di nanti.

hatred!

i hate myself!

aku benci diri sendiri!

benci! benci! benci!

bodoh!

tak pernah nak belajar dari kesilapan.

penakot!

macam mana nak jadi decision maker ni?

bonggok!

tired = me

PENAT!!!

I'M LETHARGIC!

SERIOUSLY!

2010?

ISH!

i don't think its a very good year for me.

1st January 2010 - 12am.

sucks like hell at home.

not a very good start.

yesterday, 6th Jan...

ARGH!!!!

sampai sampai kena maki baik punya!

yay!

terbaik!

kenapa perlu rasa macam dulu balik?

mahu kan seperti sebelum ini dan bukan seperti dulu lah!

please help me!

PERGI MATI LAGI SENANG.

lagi senang bukan?