Hello 2010, Goodbye 2009!

Hello 2010,

guess where am I right now?

I'm at home, watching Resident Evil, facebook-ing,

while cracking my head trying to express my feelings through here.

I'm thankful for still being here, breathing.

thank You!

I have no expectations this year.

its new year but i guess 2009 still hunts me.

i feel,

empty.

R.I.P The Rev

James Owen Sullivan or better known as The Rev has left us on 28th December, 2009. He was the drummer and back-up vocalist for my favorite band Avenged Sevenfold. I'm seriously devastated right now. I can't help to cry while listening to their songs especially "Critical Acclaim". ARGHHH!!!!!!!!!!!!! I was singing to that song this evening. WTF?! I can't believe that he is gone. The Rev has this unique voice whenever he sang as back-up for M. Shadows. i'm lost in words. i'm so sad right now. can't believe that he is gone. i didn't have the chance to see him perform live.

dear jimmy, rest in peace.

thanks for making great music.

i miss you already!

rindu!

boleh tak, i miss garfield okay. i think i hugged him about 20 minutes or so. nak lepas rindu! rindu garfield!

kakak loves you, garfield. even though i always bully you, i love you fatty! walaupun kadang-kadang rasa jeles dengan garfield sebab mum and dad gives you more attention , instead of me. but garfield, if only u knew, how much i love you. when im upset, or when im crying, u're always there, laga-laga kepala, kisses my cheeks and at times you even place your paws on my face as though you wanted to wipe off my tears. it was like you know that im sad. bukan kakak saja *pap* *pap* on your butt, its just that kakak geram jer tengok badan garfield macam tu. comel sangat! garfield, garfield tak pernah kecewa kan kakak bila kakak ajak amek gambar. how am i going to live without you? ish sorry kakak nangis masa type ni. kakak sedih kalau garfield tak ada. now you're sitting right next to me waiting for me to feed you, your favourite treat. i know. i love you sayang!

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i've always been true,

i've waited so long just to come hold you
i'm making it through,

it's been far too long, we've proven our
love over time’s so true, in all that we do
the stars in the night, they lend me their light
To bring me closer to you

Happy birthday Cali

Cali, happy birthday!!! :D

i won't see you tonight part II

cry alone. i've gone away.

no more nights, no more pain.

i've gone alone, took all my strength,

i've made the change.

i won't see you tonight.

sorrow, sank deep inside my blood.

its building up inside of me

a place so dark so cold, i had to set me free.

don't mourn for me.

so far away, im gone.

please don't follow me tonight,

and while im gone,

everything will be alright.

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di mana aku nak mengadu nasib aku?

ish!

orang lain pun ada banyak masalah,

tak kan aku nak tambah masalah aku kat diorang.

gila!

nyesal. menyesal bagi tahu.

bodoh!

lain kali tak perlu bagitahu apa-apa.

kan dah pandai pura-pura gembira

:D

nak nangis pun tak boleh,

nangis sekarang! sekarang! sekarang!

cuba esok jer lah.

sedihnya!

siapa nak back up aku?

kau boleh la, ada back up.

aku ada?

tak ada kan.

kat mana nak order 'tempat mengadu' large satu?

atau

orang ke yang boleh back up aku,

boleh?

aku sumpah, aku tak nak bagitau apa-apa dah lepas ni.

menyusahkan, kan?

aku sendiri yang cari masalah.

bodoh!

ish!

biar lah aku dengan diri aku lepas ni.

kalau tak kesah,

tak perlu lah nak ambik tahu pasal aku.

okay?

Happy birthday teejah!!!!!

dear kate,

happy birthday!!

Love you!!!!

aku malu

Aku malu,

Kau tak kan paham kenapa,

Aku malu,

Kau boleh cakap senang sebab kau tak tahu kenapa,

Aku malu,

Kau tak akan tahu kenapa,

Aku malu,

Kau tak dapat rasa apa yang aku rasa sebab tu,

Aku malu,

Perkara yang berlaku, sebelum dan sekarang buat,

Aku malu,

Susah nak bagitahu macam mana,

Aku malu,

Nak bagi kau paham kenapa,

Aku malu,

Pun susah, sebab tu,

Aku malu,

Tolong lah paham!

Aku ni pemalu.