hi!

hi!

its me again.

another entry.

by,

yours truly.

tolong bawa aku pergi jauh dari sini!

its going to be another long night.

BENCI!

wow

wow!

i manage to update 6 entries in one day.

funny!

normally, only once a month.

taniah!

no idea

met kate just now, had sushi. *ehehe* sushi king blacked out. funny! but we stayed on while other customers decided to ditch sushi king. i couldn't really eat, lost my appetite. every time i try to swallow something, its like swallowing death. sangat tertekan. memang tak lalu, rasa bila telan something tu susah sangat! but i was quite happy to get my toffee nut frappucino, my favourite drink only available during this time of the year. Argh! anyway perasaan ini sangat shitty. i hate this feeling. why should i even bother about this stupid feeling? i want to go somewhere. i should get out of the house. but where to? shht! i can't even shed a tear. stupid me. i think i need to cry now. make me cry!

trouble sleeping

i tried to get some sleep around 7 something this morning. it was terrible. every time i tried to shut my eyes, his images pops up. i twist and turn, on the tv. still nothing happen. tried to think of happy thoughts. *kapeesh* nothing. still can't sleep. then i remembered dr.subra told us in the class, to have a good sleep is to chant mantra, so what i did was, i started to chant my own way of mantra, which is surah-surah from the Quran. i felt at peace and i didn't even realize that i'd fallen asleep.

grrr!

its the most longest and horrible night ever. i can't sleep. i can't even shut my eyes. though i'd deleted most of him, but the memories of him kept running through my mind. its only 3 years of memories, come on. not even 10. i'll survive this. "he is nothing to you. you dumped him, remember?" keep telling myself this. but still i can't sleep! shht! i think i need like sleeping pills or something, so that i can sleep peacefully. please please please! or better yet, do something to keep my mind occupied. thats right. okay im going to play games on facebook now! toodles!

Glad

im glad its over. i feel so relief. don't worry.

im okay.

thanks for your concern.

it has been a roller coaster ride. im glad its over.

the funny thing is, im not sad at all. im happy!

will i shed my tears again?

burn MF burn!

you're in my burn book! don't worry : )

aku benci opportunist!

pergi mampos.

sekian terima kasih.